Sex And The 06S6City: I am so happy!!!

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Friday, July 21, 2006

I am so happy!!!

06s6c

at this point of time, i have no idea what else to do in order to get everyone's attention. in fact, just getting anyone to listen to me, is impossible. oxymoron u may call it, facade u may say, i have no idea. today was supposed to be a nice day, which i thought would establish a reason why i even bothered, why i even had hopes. but... somehow, thinking about this just... i think i will just break down anytime soon.

seriously, i think not many people will come to this blog anymore. i am really disappointed in the turnout today. it is not entirely anybody's fault, nor was it not. everyone has a part to play. in actual fact, it was really unfair and tiring to push all the responsibilities on people who put in so much effort for the class. they were always present for the activities and it didn't seem that they were busy. is busy the word? or is it about priority. nvm...

i feel, we are no longer the same. as what many of my friends tell me, the first three months are just a honeymoon period, after that, u can actually see the true colors of the class. is that really the case? i didn't believe it that. i refused, i avoided, i ran away from this statement. i once ridiculed people for telling me that, thinking they were only jealous.

i tried ways and means. i was full of hope, idealistic and ambitious at times. i thought that if i tried hard enough, things will turn out well. i thought that if i avoided the question, and maybe sometimes if i put in just a little more effort to do something, everything will be perfect. i tried to put up with everything, i thought they were just obstacles. however, this is a class, not my personal farm which i can just dictate to my greatest desires. nothing is within my control, and it is really up to every single one of u to really feel that there is a class.

the class. what is a class? a group of people, who only plays and have fun together? i think we have not been really serious about the rift between the class, not that it is the first intaker second intaker problem already. for this, it is entirely my fault. i was never assertive enough, i was never focused. it was little wonder no one took me seriously, and that i was not successful in bonding the class. for that, i really am sorry.

but, i really feel deep down from my heart, that our class shouldn't end up like this. there is always this tension, that exists between everyone. for me, i don't really mind working extra hard, although sometimes my efforts end up in nought. it is ok, because it is the way i work. as long as some stuffs go through, there will always be this motivation. however, the setbacks are greater than the motivations. more often that not, i feel that i am being overly enthusiastic, to a point that it is excessively irritating.

also, to point out, i feel that people in our class are overly committed. not their fault, but i am rather perturbed that our class actually came to this stage. somehow i feel that the class is now a cca, that people are kicked in involuntarily. put in crudely, it is just another TAF club. besides, for people who were thinking that the second intakers might be the ones who were causing the rift, i must say that u are really wrong. in fact, they are the ones who have supported me through, with many other people behind me. in fact, i have sustained until now, because of their support. else, i think i will give up.

another thing that i feel is related to our grandseniors. yes, i met miss neo on the bus yesterday and had a hearty talk with her about our 04 senior class. it was sad that we didn't have our very own senior class, though 05s60 provided us with that necessary love. yes, i was sad. but what really devastates me is that our class is not united, and that i will really be ashamed to face up to our seniors, who were so united. MAF, the major event of the year, are we able to turn up and sweat it all out as a class? do we cherish each other's existence?

in any case, i don't know what everyone wants. it is ok to be laden with commitments, it is ok to be busy, but does it really take up your life? our class has proven itself to be united once, so why can't everyone just open up their hearts? what is the thing that is hindering you? what is it that makes you so reluctant to feel and breathe as a class, just as we did before? i really hope i get some answers.

i don't want to be alone. in fact, another reason that made me always pick up from where i fell countless times, was my cousin. being an ex-hwachongian, she was able to have fun, and actually bond with her class. to her, achievements were important, but they were not everything. what mattered was the friendship that is tightly bonding everyone together. 6 years after graduation, she is still extremely close to her classmates, as though it was still after school after the first three months. i looked up to her as my model, i looked up to her life, i envied her. perhaps i am not fated to have this life.

i have no idea. i sincerely hope that everyone will just give it a thought. i hope we really get a time when we can just sit down and talk together as a class, not just having other commitments clouding our senses. ultimately, it is still up to you what is going to happen to 06s6c.

Yanmin

posted by parodyionic @ 6:18 pm

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